I'm losing them... am I?

Yet another post straight from my heart again. I've just had to let it out this time.. it's just... very hard to express myself.

I don't know what happen since the beginning of the year... they started to change, a lot. And I have to blame the Korean Waves for putting it to them. I think I'm losing them. Just before we're obsessed of being an Otaku and now.. they transformed into K-Pop sensational fans.

I don't know how to begin. I couldn't just step up to them and say 'Hey, I hate K-Pop and I don't want to be with you guys anymore,'. Now that's just really really selfish of me. What a jerk am I?! What kind of friend am I?

I'm a VERY loyal anime fan. And not too long ago, the shadows behind my back has vanished because of the light. It felt that I'm separating away from them. ALL OF THEM!! I CAN'T THINK LIKE THIS.

I can't rebel against them. I really can't. I can't just be a BIG TIME jerk. I really don't.

And I thought experience break up is worse. Hmph.

I don't want to be alone anymore. Not like last time, not now.

What hurts me more.... they lost their mood towards Anime. They're bored already. They gave it UP!

Is this how a change of heart felt exactly? Does it really? Me being like a total noob everytime they talk about K-Pop often make me think I didn't exist. But I am still here. Me, in the flash.

It felt like I'm being suck in back to the peak of darkness yet again. I need help.